Hi Everybody.I am having breast uplift and implants on 19th January 2014. I had a consultation one week ago and booked for the earliest surgery slot he had which is 9 days from now. I feel like I am going mad.I have recently lost 4 stone in weight which is great. My body is in better shape than it has ever been in my adult life and I am now 45 years old. I have girls at work half my age asking me how I got myself so toned and they even follow my fitness program. It is all good but my boobs didn't like my weight loss and decided they would move down south. They survived 3 children but the weight loss was just too much for them. I am now a UK size 10 and super toned. When I am dressed I am very proud of my body after being over weight for over 10 years I feel great, but when that bra comes off I feel sick and want to cry. I cannot undress in front of my husband anymore because I am too embarrased. I am 34C at the moment. I am starting to go out of my mind with worry about everything. I don't want to tell anybody that I am having surgery, only my husband. I don't want big boobs, I just want them to be a normal size and pushed up back where they belong. My surgeon insists that I will need 340cc and that 34D will fit nice with my slimmer frame. I would die if I had to return to work at my age with big bazzukas. For the first time in my life I am confident when at work or out and about and I know that could all change over night if this goes wrong. I am terrified of the surgery. I am terrified of any pain (total scaredy cat) I cannot sleep with worry. I am so scared and my mind keeps repeating" what have I done" I feel guilty that I am paying so much money on me. I used to feel fat and wear baggy clothes 24/7 and now I am still not happy. Am I having a mid life crisis, wanting to look younger? I have booked and paid for the surgery and it is only a week away so too late to change my mind if I wanted to. Feel like I am going crazy as 1 year ago I would have laughed if someone had suggested me having a boob job. Never in my life before would I have contemplated having this done. Do all women having this surgery feel this guilt and this crazy feeling?