Hi All,I've been reading reviews, questions, comments on this site for the past couple months. So, I thought I'd share my experience. About two months ago I got a cover-up tattoo that I had been thinking about for years and had been planning for about 4 months. I thought that with all of this time I would make a good decision. Boy, was I wrong. The night I got the tattoo I was happy that I had done it and could move in to other things, however, the next morning when I took the bandage off I absolutely lost my mind. What had I done to my body? Why did I do this to myself? How could I be so stupid? Was my tattoo too feminine? I instantly went into a total panic that has now lasted 8 weeks strong. I'm unable to do anything except obsess on trying to undo my mistake or envision negative futures in which this tattoo isolates me from everyone and turns me into a social leper. I haven't been able to sleep at all, I just lay in bed and shake and cry. Cursing myself for the decision I had made, vainly wishing I could just go back in time. Basically feeling every possible negative emotion very strongly. Being a normally responsible person in my mid-30s with a career, kids, wife, I thought I was beyond this kind of folly. After this happened I felt like my life was permanently ruined, or like I had accidentally committed suicide or something. This event had caused me to start going to therapy. I felt (and sometimes feel) as if the current self is a ghost inhabiting the life of the person who was there before the tattoo. This is by far one of the most traumatic events of my life. My wife, kids, friends, all say that I'm overreacting, yet I can't shake this feeling of being horrified at what I've done and terrified that everyone will think that I'm feminine because of the tattoo. That didn't even occur to me beforehand, I saw this image as a symbol of life and hope. It has, in a major way, turned out to be quite the opposite. My confidence has been absolutely demolished by this. It's hard to see right now how I'll ever feel comfortable in my own skin. I felt like my life was on a steady upward trajectory. Now I feel as if everything is shattered. I can't get it out of my head that I have a girl tattoo. I'm leaning heavily towards laser removal. Most of the results I've seen are somewhat discouraging, but it's the only hope that I have. From what I can tell it will probably take 15+ over the course of two to three years. The timeline doesn't bother me so much as the uncertain results. Maybe I'll make peace with the tattoo. As of right now I don't see how that's possible, but stranger things have happened. I guess I'm just reaching out for some advice or fellowship. Hopefully this rant is helpful to someone out there. If anyone has any advice I'd love to hear it.